You may or may not have seen that I recently turned 30 years old and I shared a photo of myself with my rose gold 30 balloons on Instagram to celebrate the occasion. My amazing husband surprised me with them for two reasons; one, what better way to celebrate the big 3 0 than with over sized and embarrassingly enormous balloons and two, he thought I would like to pose with them for Instagram. Well he wasn’t wrong!! See exhibit A above!!
Leading up to my birthday this year, I was very anxious about turing 30. I wasn’t sure about my feelings as I kept thinking about my past, the 30 years leading up to my birthday but also I was anxious about the next stage of my life. Reaching 30 to me meant reaching a stage in my life that years ago during my depression I never thought I would see but on the flip side, I had so many hopes and dreams. Of course life doesn’t always follow your plan and I ended up following a very different path to one I thought I was going to take.
These worries got me thinking and I decided to speak out to some close friends and family about my feelings to try and work out why I was feeling so on edge about turing 30.
The past 30 years of my life feel like a whirlwind, I’ve suffered from loss, emotional abuse, depression, anxiety and a broken family, all in more ways than one. It wasn’t until just before I met my now husband nearly 10 years ago that I started to get myself back on track, I had learnt to love myself, I had a great group of girl friends and I found myself more confident about life. I still believe I found a life partner, whom I love, who is my best friend. I learnt to love myself first and then attracted and allowed myself to fall in love with someone else. My husband and I have been through so much, lots of ups but also lots of down and we have made it through the other side. He is the one that keeps me positive and tells me when I need to sort myself out and pushes me in the right direction. I honestly don’t know where I would be without him!
Over the years, I’ve made and lost friends; I’ve been lied to, cheated on and stabbed in the back many times which has resulted in me only now having a handful of close friends whom I trust. I now don’t care about what people say about me or worry that I don’t have a huge group of friends. I am content with the people in my life and I am so grateful for them.
I don’t want to keep blabbing about my life story as I would be here for a long time, so instead I want to stay positive and share 30 Moments and Achievements from my 30 years, remembering some of the happy and positive moments from my life so far.
I have probably forgotten a lot more but these are the ones I can remember in my old age of 30! Looking back on what I have achieved has made me feel better about reaching this milestone in my life and I’m now looking forward to this next chapter of my life, whatever may come I know I have been blessed to achieve all of the above. I’m excited for the future!
What are you grateful for in your achievements?